Love hurts

How can one improve? It is a daily struggle I have. I feel like I'm improving and I think I'm improving, but I am apparently only kidding myself. I do things better, or spend time improving myself, so I feel that there is forward motion in my self improvement. But, something is still wrong. I seem to forever displease Master. This is a battle I will continue to fight, as I want nothing more than a safe, secure, loving relationship with Master. But it hurts my heart that I feel like I'm doing good, but find out that I am not.

I find myself in a quandry. My Master doesn't seem happy. I have politely asked if something is bothering him but he just says "no". I have attempted to peak some interest in him, but it doesn't seem to be working. He just seems down. And this affects our time together, because I worry about him. All those questions start coming to mind, like "Is it something I did? Something I said? or even Something I haven't done." I do feel out of sorts when I feel that things are not alright. Hope does prevail and I do believe that things will be well again soon.