Sad to Death

So I've thought about my lack of being able to communicate with Master, and am still somewhat in a slump. I have tried to broach the subject with Master, which much to my sadness made Master even more upset. He says I am doing too little too late. I am very saddened to hear this from Master, but alas I will not give up. I will continue to work on myself and only that Master will not dis-own me. My heart breaks for Master because all I want for him is happiness. Can I be the one to make him happy, and if I'm not, then what? Am I being selffish in expecting him to be happy with me?