Sad to Death

So I've thought about my lack of being able to communicate with Master, and am still somewhat in a slump. I have tried to broach the subject with Master, which much to my sadness made Master even more upset. He says I am doing too little too late. I am very saddened to hear this from Master, but alas I will not give up. I will continue to work on myself and only that Master will not dis-own me. My heart breaks for Master because all I want for him is happiness. Can I be the one to make him happy, and if I'm not, then what? Am I being selffish in expecting him to be happy with me?

Lost again

I am failing at communicating with Master, although I don't know how I'm failing. I feel like I talk to Master but it isn't working. I talk about my feelings and my wants but to no avail. I want Master to understand how I feel and what I feel because Master is all important. I want nothing hidden from Master so feel that I am constantly stating all thoughts and feelings to him. However, I seem to be failing, and I don't know what or how I am doing it wrong. I just want open, honest, sincere communication. I have decided to study up on communicating as my way of communicating is not correct.

Backwards

Why is it that I always hear women trying to put the male race down? For instance I heard on the radio the other day the d.j.'s were requesting women to call in and basically complain that their men do enough around the house. There were plenty of women who decided to call in and complain. I'm sorry, but why? My Master may not do the dishes or the laundry or scrub toilets, but he does go to work every day and make money, and he tends to the yard, and to the garage, changes filters on air vents and handles our financials. So no he may not the day to day "chores" in our house, but why should he? He does enough already! My Master deserves to praised for such things, as do most men out there. We as women need to learn to be thankful that our Masters/Husbands/Significant Others work hard for our families, and that they have not been feminized!! Unfortunately that is part of what is wrong with our society is that men cannot be men and women cannot be women. Society as a whole has tried to feminize the male and turn our females into males. Go figure. Thank you Master for being the man you are!!

Spring Cleaning and Stuff

Spring cleaning seems to bring out the shine in your home. However with that comes the dust and the actual realization of how much shit one family can accumulate. I'm quite embarrassed that I had not taken better notice last year on the yearly cleaning campaign. UGH! And I have to say that by far our twins room is the worst. They are two teenage boys and I cannot blame them 100% for the masses of stuff they have. They not get their own clothes, toys, video games and shoes but they also get the hand me downs from their older brother. Incredible. But again with the wonderful support of my wonderful Master I am allowed to clean everything! I plan to thank my Master by of course, worshipping his cock tonight, because he so deserves it!!

Turning a new leaf

So on Thursday I was terminated from my place of employment. Which is actually a blessing. I worked odd long hours, and could never catch up with matters at home. So Master has declared that I will not be going back to work outside of the home. I couldn't be happier. I have the BEST Master ever! So I have turned my focuses to getting our house properly organized (perfect time for Spring cleaning). I am also going to put all my efforts into proving that I can be good slave for my Master. I am also in charge of cutting expenses in our home. I'm so happy to have these duties, because this is the life I want and I think that I can be a better slave by having the time required for a slow learner like myself. So THANK YOU Master for this opportunity. You are my love and my life and want nothing more than to prove myself for your happiness!!!